My Two sides @2 in the night!!

It's 2 in the night, a lot of fleeting thoughts are doing the rounds of my head .
Just felt like penning down some of these.


As an another day of my life comes to an end,
My heart & mind still fighting, no more they are friends.
For sure, what one wants to say the other understands
Yet they refuse to budge from their own stands

My mind is strong yet so volatile
My heart is like a stone yet so fragile.
My mind turns a deaf ear to what my heart has to say
My mind wants to sail ahead while my heart wants to rest at bay

Sometimes life rips me apart & then I feel
How can this happen with me ,is this for real?
Is it true or is it just my worst fear?

But my mind says you’ve to face it ‘coz this is for real
you live in a world where there’s no mercy for the “dying”,my dear
Even if you fail , you’ve to learn to hide your tears
You have to keep on moving to be right there.

You may get tired , rest u mustn’t ,harder u have to strive
No time to smell the roses if u want to be “someone” in your life.
Till now u had just heard that glory road is tough
Now it’s ur time to tread & feel what this road is like.

But my heart asks me am I sure about what I want from my life?
Are money & fame the only things for which I want to survive?

In this berserk race from dawn to dusk haven’t I forgotten to be really alive?
Yes,I’ve long forgotten the chirping of birds & how that red rising sun looks like
Yes, It seems likes ages when I’ve been alone & felt nostalgic about home
with the sun down on the horizon & those trains passing by.
Yes, It seems like eons when I’ve been to a river & swam my heart out only to get tired

Time is now slipping out of my hands as moments just pass by
Still in a dilemma which of the “two lives” will let me drink the nectare of life
It’s still hazy & it’s still difficult to decide…